“A Super Diva? Honey, That Ain’t Me” by Beverly Jones-Durr
A Super Diva? Honey, That Ain’t Me.
My favorite phrase used to be, ‘I’ll do it myself!’ I was the “poster child” for over-achieving. I got this!” No problem! I’ve watched myself lose my identity and my confidence over the years, through illness and self- imposed stressful situations. I want you to know, that it is a terrible feeling. I wouldn’t wish that feeling on anyone. I had fought a battle against my own tendency towards comparison, perfectionism and an overdeveloped sense of responsibility… and I lost. My confidence had been shaken and finally crumbled.
But sometimes things have to be torn down before they can be rebuilt. Corinthians 3:4-6 says “Such confidence as this is ours through Christ before God. Not that we are competent in ourselves to claim anything for ourselves, but our competence comes from God. He has made us competent as ministers of a new covenant-not of the letter but of the Spirit; for the letter kills, but the Spirit gives life.” (NIV)
I must have read this scripture10 times in my prayer room…needed to read it more. For years I had walked in my own strength of “I can do it,” but God brought me to His strength and the knowledge that “He can do it in me.” I do not have to be a Super Diva!
My Father has brought me out of my own power, which is so limited and so, so very flawed, to being dependent on the infilling power of His Spirit. Sistahs, my confidence in myself has very limited power, whereas confidence in Him brings limitless possibilities.
I know that I’ll still have days of struggle with confidence, but my rebuilt and renewed sense of confidence is now firmly in hidden in Him. Colossians 3:3 tells us, “For you died, and your life is now hidden with Christ in God.” (NIV)
Being hidden in Him is a beautiful place to be. Seeking perfection offers no rewards. Seeking the company of God is the greatest reward you can ever receive.
Dear Lord, I have depended on myself so many times and fallen short. My confidence has been shaken and crumbled. Rebuild me by helping me to put my full confidence in the loving care of the Creator of everything. It is in the mighty and rewarding name of our Lord and Savior Jesus that I pray, Amen.
Written by ~ Beverly Jones-Durr
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